Been a little distant!

Well here I am! It has been a few weeks. Got Justin home from NTC and we have been focusing on family time. But now it is back to reality. Justin goes back to work tomorrow and we are back to the normal grind. Although I am looking forward to next Saturday, we are going to the Nascar race :) Yes, I can hear what you are thinking now....."THERE MAKING A LEFT TURRRRRRRNNN" But I was raised on Nascar and it is the 1st night race in Texas and I will be there! It is the little things in life that make me happy.

It is starting to get hotter here, Friday it was 95 and yesterday it was 93 today has been a nice 83 as of right now. I really do like it here, Yes I miss my family and all but I have my husband and my kids here and that is all that I need! All we can do is try and make the most of wherever the Army sends us! So here I am in Texas and I am going to enjoy every minute of it!!

Been awhile huh!

Well here I am. Justin has been gone for 4 days now at NTC.....dont as me what it stands for all I know is that He is in California, I am in Texas and I am missing him SO much!! I get to talk to him a couple times a day, if I am lucky :) Why does it seem so hard? I mean I spent 9 months without him, I can do this. So why do I have so much doubt? I miss him so much. I feel like I should have given him one more kiss or one more hug! I mean I see his car in the driveway and I get angry cause I didnt tell him how much he means to me. I totally understand that this is not a deployment it is only a month but it is still tough all the same! My 8 year old told me today that NTC is just like a test deployment that it is getting us ready for the real thing. I dont want to think that way but I know it is true! I know it is coming! Every day that I count down til he is home from NTC is another day closer to deployment! Well that is enough debbie downer for one night! I am off to go and watch Season 2 of Army Wives :)

I made it!

I am so very proud, I made it! I know it kind of sounds petty. Justin was in the field for 2 weeks and he got back at about 1:30 this morning! 2 weeks and I did it! I know people think that it is not that big of a thing but it was my 1st time alone in a new house with just me ad the kids! I am proud of myself.

On to other things. I found out that my mom is coming to see me in March! I am so excited!! She surprised me and bought her tickets and emailed me the confirmation. I am more than excited! By the time she gets here it will be 5 months since I have last seen her. We always saw each other at least once a month so this is a big change.

You know, being a Army wife always comes with some disappointment. Yeah Justin may be home from his 2 weeks in the field but as I just sent him off to work he tells me not to expect him for lunch or getting home at his usual time cause they are having working lunches and working late. Then he will be gone the whole month of March. I really think the Army should start to share just a little bit more! On that note I am going to go and watch some cartoons with Ethan!

Another day...another dirty diaper!

HAHA, sorry I had to laugh at that title! It is pretty perfect. So you know this Army Wife thing is tough...we are all a special breed, well most. You have your crack heads and your drama queens and the ones that think THEY wear their husbands rank and well frankly....lets be honest, YOU DID NOTHING FOR THAT RANK! There are some days that are good and other days that are rough. I have found that I do the SAME thing every day, get up, get kenzie ready and out the door for school, if I am lucky watch one of my shows before Ethan gets up, watch the Disney channel and Nick Jr til nap time and 10-11 then I get a hour to myself! WOW a whole hour.....what to do what to do, by the time I figure it out Ethan is up and time to make lunch then clean and plan dinner, and then bath and bed. WHEW sounds so simple huh. Today I have been pretty lonely though, Justin is still in the field and they keep changing when he is coming home. I know this is the littlest complaint since there are tons of peoples whose hubby are deployed and they are missing them everyday. I have really started to feel alone out here. I really miss home. But I am glad that we are able to do our own thing. I have decided that Army wife is one of the toughest jobs out there and we do not get paid for it! We have to be strong when we feel hopeless and alone. We put on a fake smile and say everything is ok when really we just want to crawl in bed and cry. Today I finally took some time for me and watched 2 of my favorite movies (gotta love tear jerkers)

So here is what I have decided, I love my life and I would not trade it for anything. Yeah my hubby may have been in the field for 2 weeks and I may be feeling lonely but everything gets better when I get a text saying "baby thank you so much in supporting me in everything I do" That is what I live for.

So, I guess on that note it is time to take myself to bed!!

A fresh start

Well hi there, so I know I said I was going to really get started on this in November.....well then the holidays came. It was my 1st xmas as a Army wife and it really wasnt too much of a difference, minus the fact that we were not in WA and around the same thing as we were every year. So we decided to go to Az and spend xmas with my dad and brother! 1st time in 21 years that I have gotten to spend xmas with my dad and the 1st time he has ever had his grandkids there :) And the 1st time I spent it with my 19 year old brother! It was so nice and relaxing we were actually there for like a week and a half.

So enough with the holidays, it is now January and I am getting my 1st real taste of Army life. Justin left to go to the field at 0 dark 30 on the 10th and here it is the 20th and we still have 4 days til he comes back. Man it is pretty tough without him here. I have decided that the kids are crankier without him here....at least Ethan is. I think he is the one that takes it the hardest. He knows that dad is at work but he wants him here just as bad as I do! I am really not looking forward to deployment which is coming in July :(

Army life is pretty different. I am like in my own little world and it consists of humvees and camo :) Not that I am complaining. Fort Hood is HUGE it is 360 miles....we are talking HUGE a lot of it are tank ranges and practice fields and firing ranges. SO needless to say when they are out practicing it is usually shaking my windows.....it grows on you after time, I am starting to be able to tell what they are firing. There are a bunch of different tanks and guns and rockets and missiles and explosives lol. Now dont get me wrong I love my life and I support my hubby 110% but I sure so miss him when he is gone.

Well that is about all for now! promise to write again soon!!

Ok now I am really going to get started with this!

Hi guys! Well I have made it to Texas (a month ago) and finally starting to get my house all pulled together! Let me tell you this has been tough. Not only did I have to leave a place were I felt safe and I knew my way around and had friends and everything but I left MY home! Now I feel like I am in a foreign place....Although now I am starting to feel more at "home" I have made me some good friends, got me a new puppy.....Her name is Lily she is a mini daschund. I am so happy to finally be here with the hubby though :)I have made a really good friend here. I think that is what makes it a little easier. So now it is time to finish pulling the house together and start thinking about Thanksgiving.....MMMMMM Turkey :) I think the Holidays are going to be the toughest part of all of this. I am missing my mom like crazy! She is planning a trip out here in January but that is not soon enough for me. I am really starting to learn the army motto of "Hurry up and wait" OH also Justin and I finally bought our 1st car all by ourselves :) YAY it is a 2007 Pontiac G6 and it sure is pretty! Well that is about it for now!

Wow its been a while

So lets see where to start! It is now October 1st 2010 and I have 1 week until the movers come to get all my stuff and move me to Fort Hood, here is what I have to look forward to 5-6 LONG days in a car with 2 kids who get antsy after about 2 hours! Oh joy this should be interesting. So Justin was home for just about 3 and a half weeks on leave and it was wonderful! I loved being able to cook big meals again. But now he is in Texas getting all checked into his until and all that and leave it to the military to make it a week long process. Well that is all I can think of for now, but I am sure I will be updating again soon and I will update as we hit the road! Those should be some interesting reads.

25 days til I get to see him!

So here it is Sunday and I usually get woken up by a phone call. Last week I got calls at 3:40am 5am and 7am and this week.....NOTHING! It throws my whole day off when I do not get to start my day hearing his voice. *sigh* Oh well what can I do about it. I have had a stressful couple of weeks. Kenzie got lice :( so I had to treat her, then a few days after that Ethan got diagnosed with a severe sinus infection. OH joy! Then last Thursday I took Ethan back to the Dr. cause he was not getting any better and they diagnosed him with pneumonia and said that his lungs sound like washing machines and if his oxygen does not get better then they were going to have to admit him to the hospital. :( So there I am with 2 kids and they are telling me that 1 of them might have a stay in the hospital. Thank the Lord that he seems to be getting better!

I am still missing Justin like crazy! The days just dont go by fast enough! Well that is enough complaining!!

Military Wife

When the Lord was creating a military wife He ran into His sixth day of overtime. An angel appeared and said, "You're having a lot of trouble with this one. What's wrong with the standard model?"

The Lord replied, "Have you seen the specs on this order? It has to be completely independent but must always be sponsored to get on a military installation. It must have the qualities of both mother and father during deployments, be a perfect host to 4 or 40, handle emergencies without an instruction manual, cope with flu and moves all around the world, have a kiss that cures anything from a child's bruised knee to a husband's weary days, have the patience of a saint when waiting for its mate to come home and, have six pairs of hands."

The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands? No way." The Lord answered, "Don't worry; we will make other military wives to help. Besides, it's not the hands that are causing the problem, it's the heart. It must swell with pride, sustain the ache of numerous separations while remaining true, beat soundly even when it feels too tired to do so, be large enough to say 'I understand' when it doesn't, and say 'I love you', regardless.

"Lord," said the angel, gently touching His sleeve. "Go to bed. You can finish it tomorrow." "I can't," said the Lord. "I'm so close to creating something quite unique. Already it can heal itself when sick, on a moment's notice it will willingly embrace and feed total strangers who have been stranded during a PCS move and it can wave goodbye to its husband understanding why he had to leave."

The angel circled the model of the military wife very slowly. "It's too soft," she sighed.

"But tough," the Lord said excitedly. "You cannot imagine what this being can do or endure."

"Can it think?" asked the angel. "Can it think?! It can convert 1400 to 2 p.m.," replied the Lord.

Finally the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. "There's a leak," she said. "I told you that you were trying to put too much into this model." It's not a leak," said the Lord. "It's a tear." "What's it for?" asked the angel. "It's for joy, sadness, pain, loneliness and pride." "You're a genius," said the angel.

Looking at her somberly, the Lord replied, "I didn't put it there."

a day shy of 3 weeks

So I am back, almost 3 weeks into being a "army wife" Let me tell you it is not as easy as I thought it might be. I knew I was going to miss Justin like crazy.....and well I do! But it is also a challenge to be a single mama. I love my kids to pieces but there are a few days that I just want to run away. It is not fun having to take both the kids to the store if I forget 1 thing. I am trying to get better organized and remember everything when I go to the store. It has gotten a lot easier since I now get letters from Justin. I have also started planning our trip out there for his graduation. YAY! He is doing great and I am adjusting well along with the kids. Well i will write again later all!!!

Been awhile.......

So here we are....Only this time we are 15 days away from Justin leaving. I really dont know how to feel. I know that the night time is going to be the worst. I am going to miss him so much. But I know that he is going to do really well!!! Hmmm that is all for right now I need to sleep.

Happy holidays :)

Happy Holidays from my family to yours!!!!

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

So the holidays are here!

I remember when I was a kid my mom would always say around this time of year "why cant Christmas come every other year" Well I thought that she was always kidding. Now having kids of my own I totally understands where she is coming from. We went today and cut down our tree :) It is a perfect tree if I do say so myself. LOL I picked it! It was like a whole 34 degrees out while we were wandering around looking for this tree But we got it, decorated it and now it looks all jolly in my house :) Why does it seem like the month of December just FLYS by? Ok well I am just talking about nothing. I better hit the hay since the daughter is in a play at church tomorrow......busy day yet again! Will write more soon! Promise!

Thinking

So the past few days I have been thinking. How did I get to where I am today? Is this really what life is all about. It is the holiday season, they say the happiest time of the year. Everything I have seen has been the complete opposite. Everyone seems to be so angry. Me personally, I am just stuck at a in between place.....in between happy and angry. Justin leaving is getting closer so I am getting more worried! I want to spend as much time with him as possible but it never seems to happen. I have been SO tired all the time because Ethan wont sleep through the night yet. I just wonder what would life be like if I had made other choice, I don't take back ANYTHING in my life but I just wonder what kind of a person would I be today if I did things in a different order.

Hmmmmm Don't really know what to think. And why the heck did I want to write a blog? No one follows me or reads them so I guess it is just a glorified journal. Well that is all for now!

The Army Wife

So this is the where it all begins!

So, here I am a 27 year old mother of 2 just got married on 9/23 to the man I have been with for 9 years as of this December. And I get the bright idea......I want to write a blog. Why you ask, well that is just a good darn question. Maybe it is because I have always loved to write. Maybe it is because I need some why to get my feelings out there, Or maybe it is because I am starting a new chapter to my life.

So the new chapter you ask..... well I will get to that in a second, lets give you the quick overview of my life. It all started in 1982 the year of my birth LOL just kidding I will not go that far back. So lets see, I graduated from Shorecrest high in 2000 WOO HOO!!!! I met Justin in August of 2000 and we started dating the 13th of December in 2000 and well the rest is history there. I had my first child when I was 19, almost 20. We bought our house in August of 2005 and we welcomed our 2nd child in August of 2008. Justin and I were planning a big wedding (we still are) but since it has been hard in the working world and Justin wanted to do everything that he can to take care of his family so after some talks he decided that the only way that he would be able to make a decent paycheck was if he enlisted in the Army.

He was in the Army when he was 18 and got discharged for failure to adapt. But now he is older and wiser so I told him.... "go ahead and try to see if they will take you again, I am behind you 100%"

So I guess that is where my journey is going to start. This is the story of one stay at home mom that was BARELY making ends meet money wise and relationship wise. Now I am starting a new part of my life....the Army wife. Let me tell you I am scared to death but I am excited at the same time! So I am going to let you all follow me on my journey.

There is going to be a lot to chat about!!

So I guess that will be good for my first ever blog! What do you think???? LOL