Been awhile huh!

Well here I am. Justin has been gone for 4 days now at NTC.....dont as me what it stands for all I know is that He is in California, I am in Texas and I am missing him SO much!! I get to talk to him a couple times a day, if I am lucky :) Why does it seem so hard? I mean I spent 9 months without him, I can do this. So why do I have so much doubt? I miss him so much. I feel like I should have given him one more kiss or one more hug! I mean I see his car in the driveway and I get angry cause I didnt tell him how much he means to me. I totally understand that this is not a deployment it is only a month but it is still tough all the same! My 8 year old told me today that NTC is just like a test deployment that it is getting us ready for the real thing. I dont want to think that way but I know it is true! I know it is coming! Every day that I count down til he is home from NTC is another day closer to deployment! Well that is enough debbie downer for one night! I am off to go and watch Season 2 of Army Wives :)